This picture struck me as I was looking for something to open this blog post.   What a happy day our wedding was!  This man that God had blessed me with swept me off my feet and carried me into this unknown of marriage.   Eight years later we are limping a bit, neither of us so strong as to carry each other, but these years have taught us both to lean hard on the third member of our union.... Almighty God.     What a relief that tomorrow isn’t dependent on just us.

7:30 AM I head in for prep for my 9:00 AM surgery.   I will have a bi-lateral mastectomy, the right side will have all of the lymph nodes removed as well due to the cancer found in those nodes this summer.   The left side will have only a few lymph nodes removed, it’s mostly a precaution, but there is a slight possibility of cancer being there as well.  

I don’t have much to say, honestly not feeling very chatty tonight.   I am so grateful for the prayers of you dear people who are carrying our burden along with your own.  Grateful for Ruthann who just arrived in Nome to help my brother and sister with the children, grateful for my dear Mother who is by my side once again, and for Nathaniel... still the man that I love!  We’re none of us mighty, Please keep praying!  

I guess I just want to declare that I still trust the Author of my biography.   I still love Him, and I will take difficult places as a child of God over any peaceful palace far from Him.   He’s not FEELING very near tonight, but I was told long ago to never doubt in the darkness that of which I was certain in the light.

iTunes is playing Aaron Espe in the background, a young musician who came here to Nome several years ago.   His song “Be bold, Son” just came on, I’m taking it as my word for tonight from my Father in heaven.....

“Don’t look back, you’ve come so far,

It’s safe where you are.

Don’t be scared, you’re not alone,

so far from home.

And don’t play timid, don’t play cold,

Be bold, Son!  Be bold, Son.

You’ll wish you had when the day is done,

Be bold, Son!  Be bold, Son.

Look ahead, that’s where you’ll be.

Do you believe me?

And don’t be scared ‘cause you’ve gone so far,

It’s safe where you are.

And don’t play timid, don’t play cold,

Be bold, Son!  Be bold, Son.

You’ll wish you had when the day is done,

Be bold, Son!  Be bold, Son.

Sing out, sing out, sing out!

I do believe You, and I will sing.